Mood Ring

As most of you know I don't have a favourite colour. It tends to lean towards blue, pink and purple a lot but when it comes down to it, my favourite colour at any point in time has to do with what mood I'm in. This also happens in my blog layouts. But for some reason, the codes I've been using are bigger than what they're supposed to be. This didn't happen before with the first two I used, but it seems to be happening with all of them as I keep changing it. I don't know what it is and I honestly do not have the time to figure it out. I could relearn HTML and make things all pretty by myself, but I don't have the patience to do that anymore. So here's my blog, sorry if the background gets pixelated and out of proportion. =(

yay clichés!

I've heard every cliché in the book about break ups. I do believe some of them but I think others are complete shit. I know I'm in for a long ride but I strongly believe that if it was meant to be, we'd be together. I woke up this morning with peace and contentment in my mind and right now I can honestly say that I am ready to look forward and move on...but I'm not exactly sure how long that will last. I know a lot more crying and emotional hangovers will come but I'm at least trying to push forward.

Time

This has been the longest two weeks of my life. I try and remember things that happened the last few days and I just can't think of anything because it seems so long ago. I guess my life is a blur now. I hope this blur fast forwards itself so April can come and I can get the fuck outtt.

yeahh

Uh yeah, it definitely just happened. The big questions came out. Why am I here? Why am I in Red Deer? Why am I in this program? Have I lost my main goal in life? Am I depressed? Because I definitely have the symptoms. I don't know what to say except for get me outta here!

Wishes

Do you wish on 11:11? Because I do. I don't know whether or not to believe in it but all the wishes that I've wished on it so far have come true. It may be coincidence but I hope to God that it is real.

I believe everything happens for a reason, I just need a little reminder sometimes. Maybe that contradicts my wish making, but lately, I have no idea what to think and I'm just about positive I'm going to have a breakdown on life and why I'm even here very soon.

from Heartbreak to a missed Friendship

Normally I blog about my feelings so here goes.

I'm sad. Yes, I am sad. Sad because it's over, sad because I miss all the affection, sad because I never have a new text to look forward to anymore, etc. I know why we are no longer together and I have accepted it, I just get a little bit emotional sometimes because I remember the good times. But what I miss most of all is you as a person. You got to know me so well when were together and we talked about everything. I want that back and I hope you do too. I would give anything in the world right now just to be friends with you again.

the way Kelsey sees it #2

Shit has happened this past week and it has made me an emotional wreck. I'd have ups & downs and times when I was content with everything in my life. But the worst days were when I just woke up in a daze. I didn't say a word to anyone, I was always on the verge of tears, and whenever I got home I just laid in bed. When I told Kelsey how I was feeling she told me I was having an emotional hangover. She says it can happen any time after something happens and to just let it out. I'm sure I'm going to be having a lot of those in the next few months but I'm glad she has reassured me that it is okay to cry and to never apologize for my emotions.

break ups

They say it takes you half the time you were with the person to get over them after you guys break up. So technically it should take about a month and a half to get over you. But really, we've liked each other since December which makes it eleven months and that means it should take around five and a half months. Oh no. =(

20 more days...

So after trying to find cheap costumes, trying to put random things that I already have together, going to the malls, clicking on internet sites/ebay, I have FINALLY decided what I'm going to be for Halloween. I am going to be a Chinese Opera singer. Why? Because I already have a Chinese dress I can use, I can hit up the dollar store to make my headdress and Kelsey said she has all the stuff to do my make-up. This costume is mostly for the make-up but it also gives me an excuse to wear my Chinese dress that I haven't worn in four years. We all seem to be on the countdown to this holiday, and now I'm actually pretty stoked for it to come!

What are you thinking?

That's a hard question for me to answer because my mind races about a million times a minute. But certain thoughts come back over and over again and stand out in my mind:

• I'm sorry I don't have anything interesting to talk about at the moment.
• I'm trying to get away from the gossip & materialism and into intellectual things.
• Whenever I'm away from you I feel scared and paranoid.
• Sorry about my up's & down's. Some of it is me pmsing but not all of it. You are right about me.
  
• I hate having arguments.
• Sorry if I talk about food way too much.

"...I don't know what I want to do and what I want determines where I want to be and right now I hardly want to be at all."

Another form of shopping

As I said, I window shop A LOT, and normally I go window shopping with my mom, but my mom has another way of shopping which is: The Shopping Channel. If you guys know my mom, or have ever been to my house, you'll know that she's in LOVE with pandas and loves tSC. Now I know most of you will probably think it's stupid but my mom's been addicted to this channel for years and this week she made her biggest purchase yet: a 3 ct. Diamond and Tsavorite Panda Ring.Cost? An introductory price of $2,562.63. Including GST it came out to be around $2,700.

Description:

• 14K white gold
• 247 round diamonds
• 81 round black diamond accents
• 27 round tsavorite gemstones
• Average combined gemstone weight of 3.71 ct
• Ring measures approximately 16mm from knuckle to knuckle

Yeah, my mom's pretty hardcore.

Window Shopping

I go to the mall way too much and sometimes it's extremely bad, like when Brady and I went on Saturday. We went into the store "The Edge" in bower mall to look for a skinny black tie. Instead I find this adorable Guess clutch that costs $100. My wallet can't handle that right now so I'm gonna have to keep on going there and staring at it and hope that no one purchases it before I do in this next coming month or so.

Zombieland!

At first I didn't want to see this movie because I thought it would be scary. But then I watched a trailer and came to the conclusion that it's going to be stupid funny, which is what it was. But this isn't a stupid funny movie I hated like Super Bad. This one I actually enjoyed, minus the two clown scenes that scared the shit outta me. The rules were funny and so was the rest of the movie, so go check it out. I actually wouldn't mind seeing this again.

Michelle 103

1. I like buying people shit. Even if I have barely any money I'll still buy something for someone just to cheer them up.
2. I have many thoughts in my head so I tend to skip words when I'm having msn conversations. Don't mind me, if it doesn't make sense, ask me, or fill in the blank.
3. I'm in love with polka dots.
4. I don't like lending people things and not getting whatever I lent back.
5. I do not whatsoever have a bubble, and to me, no one does either.
6. As you know I'm trying to eat healthier, which means I'm trying out more vegetables and I can't believe they actually taste good.
7. I like when people drunk call/text me. I find the calls hilarious.
8. I am the gossip queen. I'm sorry. I'm trying to get better.
9. One of my favourite drinks is a green frog but unfortunately you can only get those drinks at the farside.
10. I get my hair cut and dyed once a year.
    

tweeeeeeeeeeeeet!

Yes, I can't believe it either, but I got twitter. Still trying to figure it out but if you want to follow me my username is _pingpong and then leave me an interesting twat! Please and thank you!

Banff 2009

As some of you know I had a two day field trip to Banff for HOSP 244. We went to Calgary, Banff, Johnston Canyon and Rocky Mountain House. Our day started off with heading south so we could get a tour of the most wonderful chocolate ever created: Bernard Callebaut. After seeing their $800, 31 pound Santa Claus and free samples we hit up Big Rock Brewery in the SE. We were only supposed to sample two kinds of beer and ended up sampling all of it. In addition to the sampling we got a free pint of beer for free and the daughter of the creator of Big Rock was selling us a six pack of beer for only $10. She's probably one of the coolest ladies out there.

We continued on to Banff for a ride on the gondola and a nice trek up all the stairs on that mountain. The scenery & the Banff Springs was beautiful, especially on the gondola. After that we went to our hostel, got ready for our tour and supper at the hotel. The hotel has some great history to it, especially the ghost stories about the bell boy and then bride who died from falling down the stairs.

The next day we went on our 5.4 km hike of Johnston Canyon. Not gonna lie, it was a bitch to do and we complained all day and my legs are feeling the burn today. I think this is finally when I say I need to get into shape. Anyways, after our brutal hike, we took a two and a half hour drive to Rocky and went to Wild Horse Mountain Ranch and Outfitters to go horseback riding and play Mantracker.

So after we bitched and complained about how tired/hungover we were, it was actually a great two days and a great experience. I can't wait for next year and pictures will be coming soon!