WARNING: I'm being a Debbie Downer

• I don't want to work anymore. This job is driving me nuts but it's too late to find a new one.

• I feel lonely and lost. I don't know who I am. How can anyone like me as a person when I don't even like myself?

• My life is at a stand still right now. I don't know what to look forward to anymore.

But having a positive attitude can turn things around, right? I'm serving in the next two weeks so I'll see if it works.

Random Thought #6

This hasn't been a random thought, it's been a thought of mine for the last month. How do people do the exact same thing every single day for their job? I work in a restaurant, and every single day is the same. There are differences like who comes to eat, who works, etc. but it's the same thing over and over. I understand that being in rehearsals is the same thing over and over, but it's only for a time period until that show goes up. You will always do a different show, if not, there will be different actors. Every production comes to an end. I don't really know how my managers do it, or even servers/hosts that have been there for over a year. I don't know about you, but I can barely stay at this job I have now.

Random Thought #5

Do you ever just think about what could happen, or what will never happen but you think about it anyways? I do it all the time. I've never been a good writer or one for imaginative stories but I just think and let my imagination run. Sometimes I build off books/stories I've read, sometimes it's based on what happens in life and I just expand on it. This is why I don't use my ipod much anymore. I used to love listening to music, but now it's just me sitting there, daydreaming and losing track of the time. There's something odd about my thoughts though - I don't seem to have control of them, some can be quite hurtful and I end up crying/get me into a bad mood. I don't know what's up but I guess I'll have to live with it.

The last six weeks...

I've been told to blog again but I still can't figure out what to write about. So here are the highlights of what I've done in the past six weeks.

1. Worked
2. Got tips
3. Renewed my contract and got a new Samsung Flight
4. Tried the new restaurant, "West" with Brittney
5. Had a laser eye surgery consultation (I will no longer be wearing glasses as of July 19th)
6. Tried the Korean restaurant, "Seoul" for my mother's birthday
7. Saw "Prince of Persia" with Brady
8. Got Dailybooth (@ping_pong)
9. Broke my "M" key on my keyboard
10. Bought "Oliver Twist" (book)
11. Got my nails done (yes, I was that bored)
12. Bought gifts for two important people in my life
13. Tried the all natural frozen yogurt place in Kensington called "Spoon Me" with David

That's my life so far. It will get better, hopefully, and I'll for sure have something to write about after this weekend! =)

Hmmm...

I'm not really sure what to write lately because nothing interesting has happened. I've been going to work, coming home and sleeping. The most exciting part of my week was when I watched a Calgary Tower worker walk in and someone had been following her while yelling out curses. So now I'm officially scared to get off work, walk through downtown and get on the train.

My life isn't too exciting right now so maybe you can suggest something or ask me questions about stuff?

I need a...

Pensieve. Enough said.

Michelle 105

1. I like being appreciated. And I kinda wish someone would do something special or surprise me just once.
2. I love painting pottery. It's just so relaxing and at the end of the day (more like 4), you get something to put in your room.
3. I'm easily amused.
4. I like video games.
5. Driving a vehicle absolutely terrifies me.
6. I work at a "fine dining" restaurant but it doesn't really seem like it with the professionalism some of my coworkers and managers have.
7. I really don't like people canceling plans unless there's a really good reason.
8. I love almond jello.
9. I like the smell when you blow out candles.
10. The cars I want are a red punch buggie and a red mini cooper.

Random Thought #4

It's great to know what people say behind each others back. I know I'm guilty of it but I don't normally complain if that someone is hurting. I think how we treat each other in secret is wrong and I'm doing my best to stop. I realize ranting relieves stress or anger towards someone, which I think is fine, but there are times when we need to figure out when to stop. I know we're all friends but in the end we're all gonna be connections and nothing more. Hopefully that isn't true but I'm not exactly sure how much of an effort I'm willing to put in with some people and vice versa.

I'm a Sad Panda

I hoped I'd have seen at least a couple of my Calgary friends but we've been busy. I don't really know why some even try but I guess it should be the thought that counts. I'm just kinda lonely and I would definitely like a hang out sesh soon.

Dailybooth

Dailybooth is another social networking site kind of like twitter. It works the same way with the "@" and the following/followers thing. The difference is you post a picture only once a day and you write something about it but you don't have the limitation of 140 characters. I don't have an account yet and I've been debating with myself for months whether or not I should. I think it is really cool that you get to know and see people around the world but the security measures also scare me. I was always taught not to post pictures on the internet because anyone could get ahold of them and track you down, but really, what are the chances of that happening? I'm not stupid enough to put my phone numbers and address on a profile page and the list of dangers are becoming less and less for me so maybe I'll try it. If I do, I'll be sure to post my username!